so I weighed myself recently and I am down to 266 lbs. So It has taken me a month in a half to do it, but I have lost 8lbs and will be losing more. It has been a slow process and I have yet to incorporate any exercise routine. However, I plan to start walking here shortly. The weather should hopefully start warming up a little and I will be outside cleaning up the yard and going for walks. The most important thing about this entire journey is that I teach my son how to live a healthy life as he grows up.
Mentally I have been doing alright. I have done really well with remembering to take my meds every evening. I have noticed some impulsive shopping/spending and some irritability though. I have been digging into my self to try and figure out the root. I think it is coming down to not sleeping well at night (I wake up every coupld of hours), and the fact that there is a lot going on right now schedule wise and I am feeling like everything is going way too fast.
I am still looking for some quick healthy meal ideas so please feel free to comment with some great recipes.
Monday, January 19, 2015
Monday, January 12, 2015
Getting my body healthy too
So I have made some progress, although the weight loss isn't as drastic as I would like it to be, I have lost some inches. I went shopping the other day because I found out my favorite store, Debs, is going out of business. I was able to buy a pair of work pants one size smaller and a pair of jeans 2 sizes smaller. Albeit the jeans are a little snug, but they fit and hopefully they won't be snug for long. I have also scheduled a dentist appt, first one in almost 10 years, and an eye Dr appt as I cant see very well far away.
I have also challenged myself to try new things. For anyone who knows me you know this is a big deal as I do not like trying new foods. This week I tried Hummus and it was amazing. I absolutely loved it and will not be trying to make my own at home almost completely from scratch. I recently started eating tuna fish again as well, which for a couple of years I couldn't even stand the smell. I will admit I do have to have a lot of mayonnaise, but each time I make it I try to have a smaller amount of Mayo added in.
I have discovered organic sugar and avocado oil at Costco so those two are on my list to purchase and try next. I am trying to move away from using vegetable oil at all if I can. Right now I use a lot of EVOO, but I am not a huge fan of the taste. Anyone have any other healthy alternatives for cooking oils?
Recently I have been on an emotional roller coaster. Mostly just things with the ex and his new girlfriend. Sounds like fun eh? Anyways, I have really had to watch my depression and bipolar due to these added stresses. I have cut the communication down to a bare minimum and have blocked them from most social media. I also have to remind myself that no matter what she says or accuses me of I know who I am and what I stand for and that is all that matters. I will not let anyone bring me down.
I have also challenged myself to try new things. For anyone who knows me you know this is a big deal as I do not like trying new foods. This week I tried Hummus and it was amazing. I absolutely loved it and will not be trying to make my own at home almost completely from scratch. I recently started eating tuna fish again as well, which for a couple of years I couldn't even stand the smell. I will admit I do have to have a lot of mayonnaise, but each time I make it I try to have a smaller amount of Mayo added in.
I have discovered organic sugar and avocado oil at Costco so those two are on my list to purchase and try next. I am trying to move away from using vegetable oil at all if I can. Right now I use a lot of EVOO, but I am not a huge fan of the taste. Anyone have any other healthy alternatives for cooking oils?
Recently I have been on an emotional roller coaster. Mostly just things with the ex and his new girlfriend. Sounds like fun eh? Anyways, I have really had to watch my depression and bipolar due to these added stresses. I have cut the communication down to a bare minimum and have blocked them from most social media. I also have to remind myself that no matter what she says or accuses me of I know who I am and what I stand for and that is all that matters. I will not let anyone bring me down.
Monday, January 5, 2015
Its more than just weight loss
Happy New Year! Hope everyone had a great new year and got to celebrate it with loved ones and friends. I personally had a blast at the Casino with my family. It is the first time that we have all been able to go out together as adults. Anyway, I also rang in the new year sick. I got the nasty crud going around and it developed into a sinus infection and an ear infection. I ended up missing 1.5 days of work and spent 4 days in bed.
So when I started this blog I had the mindset of weight being the only key to my happiness. I have pondered on this thought for a couple of weeks now and realize that is not the only key to health and happiness. I want to be healthy and happy in all aspects of my life. These would include my mental illness, my physical appearance, my emotional health, and my monetary health. Being a single mom I feel like I am constantly stressing about money. I want to be able to allow my son to do everything and I also want to enjoy fun things. We have a trip planned to Cancun, Mexico this upcoming summer. I cannot wait, but am super stressed about the money. I know I will be paying mostly with my taxes, but I also want to pay off my trailer with my taxes as well. There is where I will start my lists. I write lists like they are going out of style. Shoot sometimes I write lists for my lists; it really does get out of hand. However, I have found it is a great stress reliever for me and it also helps me physically see my issue and prioritize.
I am sure that most of you who are reading this know me, but hopefully this blog will get to some people who don't. Either way I am hoping by opening up about my mental illnesses that I can help someone out there and maybe multiple people. In 2009, shortly after my son was born, I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, anxiety, and depression. I went and saw a therapist for probably 2 years off and on after that and was on medication. I felt like therapy was the best thing to ever happen to me. I felt to free when I walked in that room. I could talk and talk for days. I felt the more I talked, the more I learned about myself, the more I grew to like myself.
I have made some poor decisions in my life and have viewed myself as a bad person after those poor choices. I grew to hate the person I had become, which just fed the depression monster living inside me. Therapy helped me see all the good things that I have done in my life and all the adversities that I have overcome, no matter how big or small. If you have never been to therapy I strongly recommend it. Whether you think you need it or not it is a great cleansing for your soul. It is not just for those of us with "problems" each and every person can get something out of it. So that is my challenge to you, if you have not gone to therapy go find one and just do at least one session, what have you got to lose?
So when I started this blog I had the mindset of weight being the only key to my happiness. I have pondered on this thought for a couple of weeks now and realize that is not the only key to health and happiness. I want to be healthy and happy in all aspects of my life. These would include my mental illness, my physical appearance, my emotional health, and my monetary health. Being a single mom I feel like I am constantly stressing about money. I want to be able to allow my son to do everything and I also want to enjoy fun things. We have a trip planned to Cancun, Mexico this upcoming summer. I cannot wait, but am super stressed about the money. I know I will be paying mostly with my taxes, but I also want to pay off my trailer with my taxes as well. There is where I will start my lists. I write lists like they are going out of style. Shoot sometimes I write lists for my lists; it really does get out of hand. However, I have found it is a great stress reliever for me and it also helps me physically see my issue and prioritize.
I am sure that most of you who are reading this know me, but hopefully this blog will get to some people who don't. Either way I am hoping by opening up about my mental illnesses that I can help someone out there and maybe multiple people. In 2009, shortly after my son was born, I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, anxiety, and depression. I went and saw a therapist for probably 2 years off and on after that and was on medication. I felt like therapy was the best thing to ever happen to me. I felt to free when I walked in that room. I could talk and talk for days. I felt the more I talked, the more I learned about myself, the more I grew to like myself.
I have made some poor decisions in my life and have viewed myself as a bad person after those poor choices. I grew to hate the person I had become, which just fed the depression monster living inside me. Therapy helped me see all the good things that I have done in my life and all the adversities that I have overcome, no matter how big or small. If you have never been to therapy I strongly recommend it. Whether you think you need it or not it is a great cleansing for your soul. It is not just for those of us with "problems" each and every person can get something out of it. So that is my challenge to you, if you have not gone to therapy go find one and just do at least one session, what have you got to lose?
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