So I unfortunately had a bad experience yesterday. Here is some of the back story so you can understand better. I was with my ex for 2.25 years, we had a wonderful family, no kids together but he stepped up into a father role with my son. We didn't always get along and had different views on many things, but I think this only made us stronger as a couple. In September 2014 my ex started talking with another girl that he met through a mutual friend. At this point in our relationship we had been having some issues and neither of us were happy. I was struggling with my inner demons and not on my meds and he was struggling with communication and wouldn't speak with me about what was going on. Either way he decided that he wanted to be with her and give up on our relationship. I was upset but cant say I didn't see it coming. I allowed him to continue to live at my house for two weeks after while he packed and waited for his new place to be ready. We have remained friends since, talking occasionally mostly just the "hi how ya doing?". I wished him nothing but the best and hoped he had found happiness. I asked how she, Jurnee, was doing after her knee surgery, gave her well wishes, and hoped her to have a speedy recovery. I tried really hard to have peace between the three of us as I did not want any additional stress nor did I want to lose my best friend (my ex). She turned jealous and started accusing me of things that I did not do nor even thought of or would ever do. It got to the point that the only way him and I could talk as friends was in secret, which felt like an awful thing to do. We hadn't talked much over the past few weeks other than me letting him know I went through boxes and found more of his crap and he can come get it whenever.
Yesterday I received a friend request from a girl, who's name I will leave out of this. I recognized her name and text Michael to see if he knew her. He replied yes he did and I asked then if she was friends with Jurnee, he replied yes she was. I asked him why his gf's friends were requesting to add me and he said he would talk to her. I then post a post on MY FB stating that I thought it was funny that they were trying to be my friends on FB to stalk me. A few hours later I get a nasty message from the same girl who tried to add me. Mind you I have never spoken to this girl or Jurnee or met them. She basically called my a bunch of names including Fat and Bitch. This is not behavior I would expect out of a respectable you women, but rather a bratty teenager. As far as I know these girls are 20 and 21 years old.
Needless to say it was really upsetting to get a nasty message from someone I do not know. Cyber bullying has become a huge issue in the last 10 years as technology is more accessible than ever. Being a recipient of the bullying more than just this recent episode I can tell you it has such a negative side effect. People tend to be much more cruel when talking from behind their computers. So I am wanting to do something to raise the awareness of the side effects of not just cyber bullying, but bullying all together. I want to make a change in this world and start making it beautiful. My son is 5 years old and I don't want him to grow up in the world as I see it today. I am asking all of you to take a stand with me. Post a selfie on all of your social media accounts, facebook, twitter, instagram, four square, tumblr, snap chat, etc. with a sign saying stating that you are standing up against the bullying and why it is important to you. I will be completing this challenge myself either tonight or tomorrow. I ask that you invite all of your friends to accept this challenge as well. Together we can make a change and make this world a beautiful place.
Tuesday, February 3, 2015
Monday, February 2, 2015
Back from my Hiatus
With the end of football season it was a tough struggle for me. I definitely lost the battle with the unhealthy foods. On a good note I have restarted the healthy food plan. I made spaghetti Squash the other night instead of using spaghettie noodles and put cut up mini sweet peppers in my sauce. It was so yummy and way more healthy than regular spaghetti. I have been eating pita chips and hummus instead of chips and dip. I ordered a cheaper fitbit, its made by sketchers and does all the same things as the fitbit just less expensive. I will be able to track my sleep cycle as well.
I constantly struggle with sleep. I wake up every one to two hours almost every night. I sleep with the tv off so I know its not that, my phone is on the same level as me however it is not close to my head so I don't think it is that either. I am hoping that this device will help me get to the bottom of my sleep issues.
On a better note my stess levels have been down and I am feeling really happy lately. I am starting to have a positive outlook on life and know that I have so much to be thankful for. Again if you know of any yummy and healthy recipes please feel free to share.
I constantly struggle with sleep. I wake up every one to two hours almost every night. I sleep with the tv off so I know its not that, my phone is on the same level as me however it is not close to my head so I don't think it is that either. I am hoping that this device will help me get to the bottom of my sleep issues.
On a better note my stess levels have been down and I am feeling really happy lately. I am starting to have a positive outlook on life and know that I have so much to be thankful for. Again if you know of any yummy and healthy recipes please feel free to share.
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