Getting Started

I decided to start this blog for myself mostly.  I feel like having this will help keep me motivated to continue on my journey and not give up so easily like I have in the past.  Growing up I was a very active kid.  I played sports year round and was constantly on the go.  We didn't grow up eating the healthiest of foods, but they weren't the worst either.  My entire childhood and into adulthood I have always been the "fat" kid or the "fat" friend.  Whether other had labeled me for that or not, that is how I have labeled myself, and I very desperately want to change that image of myself.  I want to get healthy so that I can live a long life and watch my son grow up into an amazing man, like I know he will be.
In the past I have tried just about every diet fad out there.  Some have worked for a short time, others not at all, and some even made me gain weight.  Being a single mom I am now forced to be a little more budget friend than I had to be in my younger years.  I did Ajuva medical spa for about three months, after I had my son and that worked amazing for me.  I lost 50lbs in three months and felt fantastic.  When I could no longer afford the program (or the gas to drive out there) I slowly started gaining the weight back. 
When I was around 18 I weighed about 150lbs.  I was happy with that weight and with how I looked.  After the experience of college, partying, and moving out on my own I had gained some weight and by October 2008, at the age of 21, I weighed in at 225lbs.  I then found out I was pregnant with my now 5 year old little boy.  During my pregnancy I developed Gestational diabetes.  I had to prick my fingers 4 times a day and give myself an insulin shot once a day.  I NEVER want to go through that again, haha.  Anyways... I gained a healthy 35lbs throughout my pregnancy and by the end of it I was at about 260lbs.  After I had my son I was down to around 235lbs, i then slowly gained some weight back and by the time I went into Ajuva I was around 255lbs.  After my three month trial with Ajuva I felt amazing and was down to about 205lbs.
I was hoping that I would shed more pound and get down to my ultimate goal of 150lbs, but that was not in my future.  Trying to manage the crazy life of working full time, going to school full time, and being a single mama, I wasn't able to focus on myself at all.  Over the past 5 years I have been through many emotional battles.  I was diagnosed with bipolar, depression, anxiety, and borderline personality disorder, all of which I am very open about.  I have allowed myself to eat my way through my problems.  Although I have worked really hard to change that bad habit, I still catch myself slipping up.  Needless to say, I am 27 years old, it has been 5 years since I was on a weight loss journey, and I am ready to start again. 

You are welcome to come along on my journey with me, if you have any tips or tricks that have worked for you please feel free to share.  Thank you for reading and I will be posting starting pics and weight tomorrow.